More frequent posting

Apparently, I'm going to need to post/journal more frequently in order to keep my momentum going. This has not been a good semester. I AM finally done with grad school - so I am hoping that makes a difference in my schedule. I have not been keeping up with my clean eating :( and, I got a wake-up call at the doctor's office :( I went in sick - had to go twice since the first antibiotics did not work on me at ALL. My systolic pressure was high BOTH times - diastolic fine, but that doesn't matter as much. So, something has to happen.
I am trying to convince a couple of girls from work to join my gym with me. They've all been thinking about it for a while, so it's not like I'm pushing. It would be nice to have them there - C goes, but not consistently and I need some consistent workout buddies. Also, C is thin/athletic already, so she's really not gung-ho and she'll run at her place if she can't get there. The other girls have as much weight to lose as I do, so I would be in good company and since we all have the same goal, maybe they will be motivated to continue to go with me.
It's really not the exercising that's the problem - it's really my eating habits. I really need to get that under control. If I can do that, I know the weight will come off and I'll begin feeling better.

The "F" part of F&P is NOT going well. I'm going to have to call my attorney today and see where the lawsuit is at this point and find out when it will be wrapped up. The condo in my hometown is not selling, due in large part to the idiocy of my brother and his "ideas" of real estate which I can no longer deal with or be a part of, so we are going to be stuck with that damn thing for a while. I can no longer pay the maintenance fees on it and owe my other brother money. So, it's not good at all. The only thing that is possibly going to dig me out of this hole right now is a settlement for this lawsuit. My pay at work has been cut significantly, with more cuts looming, and I'm not even sure I'm going to get my pay raise for my last degree either. They could very well decide to not give me that at all. Even if they do, once the additional cuts go through, I will still be at the same level - even with the pay raise - and as it is I cannot pay my bills.

So, my only option IS to get to the gym and workout - that's what I will have to spend my spare time doing. I'm supposed to go to lunch with a friend today - and I don't have the money. So, getting ready to call her to cancel :( or at least postpone until February. I think it's also some of the depression kicking in. This isn't much of a Christmas as I cannot afford to buy anyone gifts of any kind - if I didn't already get it earlier this year, then I cannot get it now. So, that's not making me feel any better at all. Combine that with my being overweight - there's not much to be happy about right now. I know I need to get out of this state, but I'm finding it difficult to do so. I don't want to leave my house or do much of anything and that's not good.